groovy*

2006-05-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

i've moved. see you round the corner. heh:P

2006-05-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

of all the things about You that i love
of all the things about You that i love
of all the things about You that i love
i love the most that You first loved me

well i love the way You made the heavens and the earth
and i love the starry hosts in the sky
Lord, but everytime i think about Your love for me
i just want to stand and testify

well i love the way You came and gave Your life for us
and i love that we've been saved by Your grace
and to think you would have done it all just for me
makes me want to sing for all my days.

2006-04-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

drats.
i deleted the links when i was deleting the old tagboard.
do leave your links again and i'll try to fix it up soon.
i feel lazy now.

anyway, i was on a 2 days mc this week. and it was bad. trng on mon and tues. and tuesday night, if you've heard about it. eeks. so i went to the doc on wed morning and she said it is query appendicities. cos the symptoms were there. and if it gets any worse, there goes my appendix. she didnt say this word for word. but this was almost what she meant. can you actually imagine such a small little silly hook causing so much of a trouble. ayes. so i slept the two days away. the weather was just right. okays. maybe not. i thought i was going to miss the hwachong match. and i was quite prepared to feel disappointed about my absence. fortunately or unfortunately, the match was postponed due to the bad weather. so yes. seventeenth may. the day after choir concert:)

today's short. i mean like fridays are. no softball for at least a week. i took 135 to sch. we had this plan that i wld meet bi and sly then we'll go to school tgt. but i hopped on the earlier 135. so i sat with felicia to tk. (note: a sec 2 tk softballer) then i had to wait for the rest again. spent my four period break catching up on two day's work. then it was the dreaded gp lesson. oh and ml actually chided me and sj for talking during assembly. and he was outrageously rude to us. gosh. anyhow, the class was practically sleeping throughout the video he screened for us in the english room. i guess it was too comfy. while i was attempting to complete the chem prac worksheet. oh yes! and so it was the long-awaited silver mirror test. but i still cldnt get it. and mixing and handling those chemicals became quite a chore. now i've got silver chloride stains on my elbow and on my blouse. sheesh. chem remedial followed up. routinely enjoyable. then i met up with kel and pris for yoshi lunch. and mint choc pretzel after that. jas dropped by for a short while. and then we went to meet herbie. and played risk. and im home! caught the last episode of the undisclosed. so 2 yoshis in 7 days. gooo....

taitai classes here we come:):):):D

2006-04-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

technology.
it brings people closer.
you say emotions cant be fully expressed.
but i would rather be communicating over that luminance screen
than to lose all contact.
at least you know what i want you to know.

transport.
concession seems like everything.
they carry me on my little adventures.
just like yesterday.

media.
a tonne of crap.
they stir trouble.
they intoxicate you.
they blow the fiery flumes
just to tell you how resourceful they can be.
but i say
yet another tonne of crap.

---

can i just be that flourist at the shop house downstairs?
can i just be that wedding planner at the bridal studio?
can i just be someone simple, leading a pretty satisfied life?
i can.

because satisfaction comes from the heart.
and my heart's filled with Your love.

2006-04-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

sly and me. after game at tpjc.

vj sportsday 2006: me, nic and joyce.
pppphhhhhoooooeeeeennnnniiiiiixxxxx.

me, sly and sj:)

team dinner at ps cartel.

bi and me:)

queen/me

vj softball girls

sly, me and clara

2006-04-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

short and sweet is nice okays.
here's a long~~er than usual~~ entry for ms kiwi

sunday...
i went for morning jog in the slight drizzle. then to the gym. got changed and dressed for 945 mass. it was rather exciting. cos it was palm sunday. and everyone had palms in their hands. there was a minor hiccup at the easter fiesta booth. but other than that everything was quite okay. sat with the cc1s for mass. apparently seats were reserved for them. council meeting after that. like the few others we had before, there was bound to be much to laugh about. sunday lunch at sunday coffeeshop. with cartons of sunday vitasoy. (note: sunday refers to any day im in church) after which, we helped out with church cleaning. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would have turned out actually. cos the servers were in the main church too, rehearsing for the holy masses to come. and did i mention? it holy week! so we stayed til around four plus. then i went to central with lyn and add. caught abit of ms singapore. cos there werent any other nice shows around. spend the rest of night on the phone before dozing off to dreamland. and yes. where i dreamnt about the silliest of the silly things.

monday...
back to school. the most dreaded day. packed with tutorials. especially when there;s no more physics practical. this means three physics tutorial in a day. ayes. made our way down to national stadium with yan, jess and meilin. i never knew there were so many different associations underneath the spectators stand. to think i've attended numerous parades and events there. hahs. but it was an eye opener. but the rooms were quite small. and the doors! green and woody. like godillocks kind. we entered one of them labeled singapore baseball/softball. and the lady in there was eating an ice-cream. so off we went, to get ourselves a treat too. hahas. back to tk for training. only a few of us were there. i liked this kinda training though. cos there;s more chance to improve and to play and to learn! sly couldnt join cos she had to finish her essay. what a pity. anyway, it means im free tmr. hahas. im looking forward to every new day. and here;s whats in store:

tuesday: lunch. passover meal.
wednesday: game against tpjc. easter fiesta last meeting.
thursday: sportsday. chrism mass. adoration.
friday: passion play.
saturday: leader's meeting. mpm. easter fiesta deco.
sunday: easter fiesta! easter dinner. simply easter joy!

~~monday: three periods of physics tutorial again~~

gosh. so much nitty gritty details. eeks. short entries are still prefered. hahas.

and cheers to my gp rep. she rocks.

just like emmanuel:)

sure, its gonna be an awesome week!

2006-04-09T01:40:00.000+08:00

im done with my gp essay:) and i chanced upon alot of interesting news. and its just one more month to go. yeah. one more week to easter. and one more night to precious passion sunday.

so close to flagrant disregard.
so close to squeamishness.
chained. to the prisoner's ball.
and the knuckles cracked.
like how you've showed.

a garden called gethsemane.
a garden of agony.
yet a garden of hope.

2006-04-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

heyhey!
music fest was a blast.
and all the crappy april fool's joke.
ahhs silly.

and thanks for invading. that's a really nice song. i swear:):):):D

2006-03-30T11:18:00.000+08:00

I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
And I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my heart
`Coz I'll stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears

And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

And I swear, by the moon and the stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear, like a shadow that's by your side
I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the walls
And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
`Coz as the time turns the page, my love won't age at all

And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

I swear (I swear) by the moon and stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every (single) beat of my heart
I swear, I swear,Oh... I ... swear..

Here is your favourite song I'm leaving for you. Hope you are having a good rest now. But I will wake you in a few hours time. We will have fun. I swear.

-Orion.

2006-03-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

these two days were pretty lovely. that's the simplest way to describe. to the point. ahhs. watched the all stars at kallang in the morning. macs for lunch. then we headed all the way down to woodlands for the sas game. singapore american school. we won:) 6-5. it was a good game though. i like their outgoing personality and the place was so gorgeous. their parents came fetch us in mpvs from the stations. one after another. so cool. and there was this 'softball cracked' windscreen sticker that i felt was really cute. it was dogh after that. then supper at macs again. i enjoyed myself truckloads. :D

2006-03-23T17:39:00.000+08:00

thursdays! my sweet and short days.
so i joined in pe today. we did floorball. it was quite funny. like always. when you've got the girls like esther, nic and caroline. hahs. march hols are over in a blink of an eye. it was a eight days straight of softball. we watched 61* at jy's place. subway-ed. and made a hell lot of noise at raffles. and src is over. we came in second. after hwachong. and the all stars match is this saturday. i think it would be a real good game.

and yes. there's so many things to do that a lifetime's never enough. somethings got to be sacrificed. some have to be cherished. and a balance will never be one fair. if only things were as easy as a see-saw. but He's getting me there. i'm sure. and after reading dot's entry about the cc4 camp. i want to go for the next one too*coffee's in the mixer* its so exciting. hahs. and there's so many things in store this term. goodie stuff. plus the softballers. thanks to queen and meilin for those appreciative hugs. i just love the time we spend tgt. ahhs. and i surely wouldnt mind more.

i see myself ten years down the road. and i love it. because i see myself still safe in Your hands.

"If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live!" - Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Find whats written on your door then pray for the Keys to open it. Look Up, Speak Out, Walk In.

I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. -phil3:14

2006-03-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

im back from cc4 camp. and im missing it. all the friendsy songs from the last session keeps running through my head. and you, thanks for coming up to me. i wld never have expected it coming from you. perhaps someday i'll get to know you better. someone more than just a little boy whom i've felt difficult to ever open up with. you were right. we had our fair share of fun. yet our fair share annoyance. from all the penang trips, and the many other trips we've been to together. it wasnt the you you i saw today. and perhaps things will change in time to come.

and here's cheers to the mass and music comm. we did well. but it seems like we were working at the wrong time. like all our late night preps during camp. but it was fun. i've learnt quite abit. but i missed the most important programme. perhaps i'll be given another chance next year. the bbq last night was nice too. if only we really partied till dawn. heh. and the people i've met in this camp. cheers to you! you're all so marvelous.

there's so much so much to talk about. but i need my sleep. i shall be off. and back soon. and im looking forward to breakfast with the trio. yeah=)

2006-03-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

it just struck me. how i wouldnt say i love fridays now. cos all i could ever think about now was what happened on that friday. there's so many things i would have loved to ask you. but there's no chance. and there's no use. nothing will ever be the same again without you. the last thing you ever did to me was a little wave last friday. had you already in mind it was a farewell bid? how i wish i could turn back time and look into your eyes once again. that pair of eyes that once shimmered with hope, with confidence that i never found in anyone elses. as much as i looked forward to the end of chem papers, i wish i never did now. i wish i always had you to take the exams with me. but its silly to wish now. silly to regret now. cos just when we were a step closer this year, you left. but still, you will be someone very very special in my heart. someone i've learnt quite abit from. someone i've always admired for intelligence. thank you for all the lovely times you've shared. i miss you alot alot. and i'll pray hard. that you'll be one of them i'll meet in heaven.

2006-02-25T00:12:00.001+08:00

its friday! i love fridays. it marks the end of another week i'll pulled through by God's grace. praise my Lord. anyhow, here's a few things to mark this week. (in no particular order)

- youth council meeting on thurs. it was nice. and really different from the past council. no offence but im glad to be able to witness such a change. ahs.
- soccer after gym on monday. it was darn funny. i guess we spent more time laughing than kicking around. after which mr wee wanted us to play against the soccer girls when we were having so much fun at the hockey pitch squeaking. hahs. so we went over to the parade square and tata, we lost 1-0. it wasnt that bad though. i mean, if you were there, you would have know. muahahs.
-macs with manyi. gosh. another silly time of jokes and more jokes. cranky over organic chem yet again.
-trainings. were cool. were hot. were burnt.
-i climbed over the school gates for the first time ever. its some sort of legend would i say. hearing pple climbing over them. cos there wasnt a choice. we stayed back in the canteen to mug after we bathed. and we had saprino pizzas. they were not bad. and we were actually locked in. anyhow, the school was like ours alone. hahs. it was a friday aftn but there werent many ccas around. eone was mugging away. sounds wrong. ahs. yea. so we had the restrooms, canteen blah blah blah all to oursevles.
-physics spa on friday. 8 to 9. i forgot my hp. so i decided to come home during the few hours break. just in time for lunch! cooked by mom. so i ate with sis read the papers, the bible and just all the stuff i felt so relaxed at. and headed back to school. the roads werent jammed so i didnt mind the journey. back for trng. and tk were having their sports heats. pep talk. was good. i mean, meaningful. hahs.
-snail mail and a pin badge with Y send from my best friend! hahs. its on my pen case now. no worries. i'll think about you. surely. and nineteen. that was chosen because of you. its the number ms jacob used to call. heh.
-the list really goes on... its been an eventful week.
-and one more thing, my reflection always seem to be returning back to this same good old point. i love it. whee!

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom?
Who can fathom the depth of Your love?
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above

And I stand, I stand in awe of You
I stand, I stand in awe of You
Holy God to Whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of You

2006-02-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

2006-02-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

im at mom's. finally. its a busy week. and finally its friday. ahhs. polished teeth. gee:D

2006-01-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

its chinese new year eve! im at grams place using the com. i want to join them at the fireworks. but hais. im stuck at a ulu place. anyhow, i watched wimbledon and meet the fockers earlier this evening. dont feel like watching anymore. its too comfy in there and i might just fall asleep. met jjmm for the campaign thingy this morn. at last i've got sth started. then explc. guilty. cos i cldnt absorb much. only digested some peanut coconut sweet made by the camelite nuns. its really sweet. spring cleaned and here to gram's. souvenirs from the states! i was looking thru the photos they snapped. and yea, my mind was flooded with thoughts. i mean like.... and like... oh sheesh. but i've got no concrete plans. yea. perhaps after next week. ayes.

anyhow, yes addison! i agree! ystd was fun. tonnes of it. i made my maiden step into st pats. and i realised how much i missed st nicks. the feeling i get in college is just so different from sec school. i miss cny masses. dances. and songs. then to the other side of the island. i finally settled on a biblical theme for the campaign. then the spiritual prep at night was niccceeeee. even though there were so few of us who turned up.

february is such a packed month. six days to explc camp. im experiecing pre-camp excitement. i wont say its a terribly good thing cos its measured on the same scale as my post-camp withdrawal symptoms. oh *smacks myself* at least, there's a reason to smile the whole week through. cny visiting. fellowships. and simply mahjong. muahahahas.

~~i hate politics.~~

2006-01-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

elle sont tres ennuyeuse.
je veux amigos para siempre.

2006-01-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

love, best served when its given from above.

the Spade.
the ought Superior.
the self-proclaim mind you.
the black. the short and the stout.
he digs. he scrambles. he ransacks.
and one rivulet streams.

he sure did create a mess.
but you know, he could steal nothing.
nothing was ever his.
it was a fantasy.
for whatever you lost, he lost a double.
you know you are winning.
and well, you've just won.
the second tear has been paid for.

it was a deck of lies.
it was obvious.
thirteen spades.
you cant escape,
you dont have to.

you walk away,
the others spelt r-u-n.
you know it isnt true.
cos you've just found someone else notches better.

and it didnt have to be a royal flush.
but you know He's yours forever.

your heart smiles everywhere you go.
you dont bother about hell.
you know you've got the best.

you dont have to dictate every single blessing.
you know you're far more fortunate than anyone else.

and when you've got the last laugh.
i will go,
''see, i told you.''

2006-01-18T20:24:00.000+08:00

its another great day! i feel loved. gosh. training was lovely too. with our auntie umbrellas race and stuff. our piggy back rides. our wobbly legs. well, you see, its been a long while since i;ve seen such camaraderie in school. and i miss stnicks. im looking forward to our cny reunion. and the explc camp too. and the sundays. and the saturdays. and the fridays and the thursdays. im back on track. i've found my direction. and i cant be any happier.

thank you.

2006-01-17T20:51:00.000+08:00

its gonna be a busy term. and i feel tied down alrd. anyway, today's maranatha's eighth birthday. oh whee. we're EIGHTH :):):):D yepps. so we celebrated it last sat round the island and finally landed at harbour front. i've done alot these few days. not purely work but yea. i feel glad today. ahhs. im off.

and oh. i feel excited for the month of august. well. dont come telling me its a hell of months away. its gonna be a blink of an eye. oh yeah!

2006-01-13T01:31:00.000+08:00

hahas. addison. its not you la. i wont refer negatively to someone who reads my blog. im certain this one will never ever come here. and i really do mean certain. ahas. i've got my means. sorry to keep you worried. hahas. you've been a good boy. and its true:) but i wonder who you've been guessing too. tell me soon too. heh.

im looking forward to saturdays. and gosh. i've said it many times. i hope it doesnt sound too cliche. but it seems like now when i refer to saturday its not exactly the day after friday and before sunday. its just what i get to do and who i meet on saturdays that i miss. so yea. if you do get what i mean. it seems like every day is a saturday now. cos when the bell rings and the books close. you, and i dont mean just you but you, will be there for me. ahas. this is so lovely. thanks for being there.

2006-01-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

there used to be a mouse. scrambling throughout the maze in search for his cheese.
there used to be a dove, soaring in the clear blue sky in search for the rainbow.
it was a mouse. not a rat.
it was a dove. not a crow.

but now i see the ulgiest side of you.

the red man lits.
and i wish you could just stop it.
the green man flashes.
and you stroll.

what happened to the might you promised me.
it went along with you.
with you,
into the sea.

and that.
was the last.

its weird to know you're sitting on the fence.
its weird to know you're there but not exactly.
its weird to know how you're going around trying sorts.
its weird if you ever do return.
but somehow. i know you will.
because you wont leave us.

perhaps being weird is the in thing.
but i wldnt dare try.
heh.

2006-01-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

it was day of recollection just this saturday. it made me realise how much i was still dwelling in the year 2005. how much i love and miss the times we had. how much i've learnt and how much i've lost. how much i've received and how little i've gave. but it was time to bring an official closure to 2005 which i have yet i suppose. and i recollected the good and the bad times we had. and the most unforgetable time was our retreat at the start of the year. then, i gained alot. i remember the retreat house we were in. this gorgeuos bungalow. with rooms so elegant and cosy. with toliets so spick and span. with walls embedding almighty protection. with tiles shimmering hope. with love radiating north south east and west. every activity was participated with much sincerity. much enthusiasm. much pleasure. we did everything together. and our many hearts beating as one. we played hockey using brooms, dustpans, feather dusters and scrubs. we cleaned, swept and mopped. we fed each other curry dipped pratas. and we smashed them on each other's nose. we had oreos sliding down our foreheads to our mouth. we had sessions to praise. sessions to worship. and sessions just to let us know how silly we were. sessions to know how important we are to each other. we laughed, we cried, we cheered. and we emerged as stronger hearts. and there it was. such strong love i ever experienced. along the corridors and down the stairs, you never walked alone. you bang into each other and you start to chat. it'll take long for you to come down from the dorms. but there we were. playing scissors paper and stone just to get a step higher. and there we were. queuing behind those closed doors anticipating the next activity. there we were. passing one cup of water so that everyone could have a sip. there we were. sneaking into the kitchen so that we could be of some help. but most of the times, we were chased out. the kitchen was thiers. ahas. there's much more to us. but such a beautiful milestone cant just be described well in words. it would take a lifetime to know it, live it and love it. so, would you want to spend your lifetime journeying with us?

and this coming saturday would be maranatha's eighth birthday. eight years. that's quite a long time. its almost like half my age. i've spend a year and a half there. and im still loving it. here's a big thanks to all those who've helped mpm to grow all these years. thank you for bringing mpm to what it is today. and i stand in awe. for every saturday that comes and stays somewhere in my heart.

to (in no order of preference) herman, tm, elvin, hil, jo, ben, lyn, aaron, mark, jacq, jo', mich, daisy, matt, dot, joyce, addi, rach, ber, joel, aloy, small rach, aloy', jeremy, sean, ray, marisa, ken, alvin, melvin, alvina, jenn, and the lek sisters... i love you.

and with this, i officially bring a closure to year 2005. may 2006 be a blessed year for all of us. may we learn to love each other more with each new day. may the words of love be on our lips in everything we say. may the spirit melt our hearts and teach us how to pray, that we may be a true family. amen!

2006-01-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

today's a happy day. a blessed day. cos i met jj for hashcakes. and i actually lugged all my school stuff plus training stuff plus my working uniforms to be returned all the way to j8 and back home. i use to envy how you people can receive msges saying lectures are cancelled. hahas. and i got it today. like wow. i wanted to be there for tie day but i had 5 periods of break in the morning, so i decided to go a little later for chem at 12. so we walked around. i was so elated that i didnt realise i lost my wallet. i dropped it at macs=/ it was only quite some time later that we decided to find a place to sit that we went to mos. and i wanted a strawberry shake. but i couldnt find my wallet. and i was super afraid. you know, i've never misplaced my wallet before. then i rushed back to macs. but it wasnt anywhere on the ground. and someone called me from the back. it was the manager there:) they've got my wallet. all intact:) lucky me. here's a big THANK YOU to the honest customer who returned the wallet. i cant imagine what would happen otherwise. sheesh. lucky lucky. its a good day. and it was training at tk after that. quite bad. as in, hais. but its better now la. she made them sit down and have a talk. she was quite annoyed. sheesh. but i feel a little more optimistic after hearing some words. anyhow, i headed down to chuyi after training with min. and im home just in time for the nine o clock show. ahhs. and one more thing. im addicted to corrinne may's voice. it feels like a must everywhere. gosh. still thinking if i shld go for her concert.

saturday is nearing. in two hours. i feel even more excited than countdown. heh. and may we have a good weather tmr too.

--------------------------------------------
Little Superhero Girl

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And i just dont know where to turnI
've got work piled up to my head
All i want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how i'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All i need is a small weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a superhero

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
into pink poodles that bark,
But don't bite

All i need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All i need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a superhero

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save Me

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

2006-01-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

happy new year everybody!!!

im back. econs r ended today. price discrimination was tested. i feel cheated. ayes. its okay. try harder. its a new year. new events are coming up. more new faces to meet. and much more things to learn. explc camp is in a month's time. and suddenly i dont feel prepared again. ayes. yet im more looking forward to facil cc4. somehow i think i'll learn much more there. and im excited too for the cc4 camp. it reminds me of my own confirmation camp. my own beautiful experiences. and that's will be after block tests. oh. block tests. its back again. sigh. apparently, they found it useful. so perhaps its not that bad too. week nine. block tests. sheesh. week eight. spa. this term's gonna be packed. with cny celeb. and camps. oh whee! and next term there's easter feista and i just attended the first meeting. but it was more like on impulse. cos i just heard about it from jj. i didnt agree to go for it. i feel quite loaded alrd. plus there's cca too. i seriously almost wanted to quit it. cant wait for it to be over. i've stopped for a week. cos of econs r. but i think i wont la. even mr chow says so. in a way. oh. mr chow. he's my new physics tutor. the honourable author of my secondary physics textbook. he's quite comical. cos when i see him i recall the geog trip. ahas. plus he screened apollo 13 for us today. and we ended quite late ard 2 instead of 12.45. hmph. anyhow, we managed backstage passes! to the exclusive pa room. hahas. but we stayed for 01 so long that it started to rain. one year's gone fast. really fast. i want this year to fly too. but i want my saturdays longer! im looking forward to mpm retreat tmr tmr! i want mpm. i want jym pte ltd and our lovely but rather annoying songs. heh.

and its a strawberry pocky day today:):):):D

2005-12-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

i feel lazy to blog all the fun that i had these past days. basically it was pure fun hanging out with mpm and my family and my friends. heh. so cool. oh. the headlines, jy has captured m. from a partnership to a company. as what m calls it. but we're jealous. cos m has her own m:industrie. hmph. alrights. im being cranky. anyhow, i think i prefer tagging nowadays. feels such a chore coming here. so yeah, see you at j or m's site. heh.

2005-12-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

its christmas eve already! and thanks esther. hahs. 2943 years eh. we must be old. see that grey hair? heh. i feel chrismassy these days. thanks to lirong, prisca and jean for those snail mails. sentimental feeling i get from my fellow six fathians. and plus rachel's scare turn hilary's surprise. gosh. first degree surprise aka shock. it was so scary for me to get to my back gate past midnight. and meeting someone so unexpected. and i actually had to force my eyes to look down at the floor first to see if i could regconise whose shoes they belonged to before i dared to look into the eyes. anyhow, thank hil jo and rach for the surprise and gift. i did feel quite tempted to rip it open but i didnt. its still in tip top condition now. oh whee. boxing day. boxing day. boxing day!

i cant keep track of my days now. but i rmb going out with my family this week. except dad of cos. he had to work. ayes. busy man. so we did some christmas shopping tgt. finally there came a time when i dont have to admire other kids going on a christmas spree with mom and dad. heh. i guess its just quite natural that when we grown older we'll grow out of it. ayes. and mom actually signed up for chicky club when we had dinner at kfc bcos the staff there had such a glib tongue. cheeky club. we even received free collectables from mr chicky. oh ekks.

and the gathering as gerri's place that day was fun too. the food was fabulous! there was apple crumble, fruit pie, turkey, bacon and blah blah blah. the fellowship was quite good also. with murderer and mafia. i think its gonna be fulfiling facilitating the next batch. they did seem well to work with. and the card was sweet too. thank you:D

so yepps. im feeling happy these days. so im sharing it with all of you reading this. much more's coming up. and i do hope we can play mafia at michelle's place later though. just this sudden craving. sheesh. heh. im looking forward to midnight mass. hopefully pris can make it too.

its time to jingle and jangle christmas!
have a sweet time!

JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON.

2005-12-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

i think im blessed.
i think im spoilt.
im blessed.
and im spoilt.
by my God.

i've came to realise how good He still is.
how much He loves me.
how long He has been there for me.
always.

today's a nice day.
cos its gonna be so difficult spelling out how b-l-e-s-s-e-d i am.
it takes my shadow to know how glad i am.
how freed i feel.
how loved i am.

i guess one thing i noted from camp which didnt seem any obvious then actually came true.
f.r.i.e.n.d.s
that's all it takes.
ahhs.
you know it. i know it.
friends.
we stay that way:)

2005-12-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

ah. yes addison. its a song. from s club. ahhs:) thanks sam. and sean! seems like im seeing you everywhere. hahs. and your brother. gosh. i guessed as much he had some relation with you. the first time i saw him at jo's house was like woah. a splitting image.

anyway, prayerwalk's over. it was awesome. it was lovely. it was simply great. though i feel a little more relieved now i kinda miss spending time with them too. like we how we would have dinners every evening tgt and some chats til late night. but yea, its time to move on.

i've got econs re-paper. i shant stay long. then i can enjoy my christmas and new year with all of you!

dear maranatha,
i'm so in love with you!
yours sincerely,
yvonne.

2005-12-16T13:40:00.000+08:00

First he said that he wouldn't leave me
What a fool to believe that line
Just another one of his obsessions
To help to pass the time

Get it right,
get it right,
get it right,
don't get it wrong

Cos if you want me,
get your ass on over here and show me
Stop wasting time

And if you need me
Get your act together boy and show me
You should be mine

All in love is fair
One of us will lose
Is it her or me
Is it me or you

Who's it gonna be
What you gonna do
Are you over me
I'm not over you

Cos you said that you wouldn't cheat me
That our love was to last all time
She must've been a big exception
If you're not the cheating kind

Get it right,
get it right,
get it right
Don't get it wrong

Cos if you want me
Get your ass on over here and show me
Stop wasting time
Boy if you knew me
Baby you would never want to lose me
Make up your mind

All in love is fair
One of us will lose
Is it her or me
Is it me or you

Who's it gonna be
What you gonna do
Are you over me
I'm ~~not~~ over you

You gotta take the good with the bad
The happy with the sad
But don't get mad if things don't go the way you planned

Just understand that real love is in demandI
f you're ready for commitment girl just take my hand
And if you get lucky, love will be a cruise

There are so many roads which one you gonna choose
But there's a risk, you know you gotta take
No messing, a choice you gotta make
There's one cross you know you gotta bare
All in love is fair

All in love is fair
One of us will lose
Is it her or me
Is it me or you

Who's it gonna be
What you gonna do
Are you over me
I'm not over you

2005-12-15T10:52:00.000+08:00

youth camp's over. though i did feel that the spiritual element wasnt as strong as the others this time. it was quite alright. but if there's one thing that grew in me throughout this camp, it would be my sense of belonging towards maranatha. there were moments when i felt proud being one of them. ahhs. we played alot of crazy games. rough and gross. hahas. but it was fun. the dorms were quite unpleasant though. but there were still nice pple around:)

monday.
we celebrated nic's bday back at chuyi. then we headed down to ps to watch perhaps love. hahas. we had quite abit of laughs not understanding the show well. plus the sea games hoo-ha. sweet popcorns..

tuesday.
prayerwalk. prayerwalk!
they came to my house first then nat's. it ran quite well.

wednesday.
poot's house to do souvenirs. then back to prayerwalk. at marisa's house. then some tua hway at srgn. had quite a long chat. luckily dad drove me home. but i overslept this morning. cant make it for the pennitential service. argh.

and sixone christmas party has been cancelled. utterly depressed. was quite looking forward to it. please. let's make some other arrangements. perhaps we could go shopshop. ahs.

third day of prayerwalk. may it be nice:)

2005-12-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

ive packed.
all ready to set off for camp i guess.
but guilty.
ivent got my heart and mind tuned.

anyway, today i went to grandma's house! after i settle some stuff at the bank. so i bought her two kong ba pau. i think that's what you call it. heh. she was happy when she saw me. i just know it. she's with bro and my other relatives now. at cameron highlands. and he took the sleeping bag from the store alrd. means im left with none. i wonder if we need them tmr. its kinda late to ask ard. nvr mind. i hope we dont need it.

oh. i went shopping today. ahhs.
i saw the nightmare before christmas.
lovely:):):):D

hey charles. i'll be off for camp til the 11th. perhaps update you after that yea? do take care alrights. yeah. christmas is coming. oh whee:D

mui. long time no see. thanks for dropping by and enjoy your hols=)

2005-12-07T09:59:00.000+08:00

its a
candy floss over popcorns
sunflower seeds over saga seeds
rants over surprises
day.

its a
no-longer-would-i
no-longer-could-i
no-longer-should-i
no-longer-dare-i
thing.

its a
shut-me-down
turn-me off
time.

its a silly way of love.

2005-12-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

its the second day of december:))

so i had lunch with rachel ystd. ahs. i feel so free these days. then prayerwalk meeting at night. it was loong. plus the hut building. i stayed a little longer. and i was so tired by the time i got home. but i felt accomplished. and that's a good thing.

and for the past few days i watched what i like about you during breakfast. i rmb watching it last year after school on tuesdays. hahs. im suppose to be out with sis today. but ahhs, change of plans. oh. and i'll be working tonight. a little looking foward too. heh.

nothing much today. except manyi's getting her gold at the sea games. gosh. im so glad for her=D

2005-12-01T10:26:00.000+08:00

we ate a dinosaur egg ystd morning. ahs. i just couldnt wait for time to pass. i was almost rotting. and the feeling wasnt nice. like you get paid for not doing anything. you get paid just for your time. so i've been thinking about it. thinking about quiting. i kinda realised there's much more stuff awaiting me. like you, reading this now. plus , they are ridiculously overstaffed and since i dont go back to school much often now, it can be quite a chore getting there. im left with two shifts. friday night and sunday night. so if you are free, come and visit me. dinosaur eggs no more. and im working with grace on sunday night too. ahhs. im off today. and i love the feeling. i woke up pretty early when dad was about to leave for work. then i tidied up the house and planned to swim. but it started raining. hmph. so here i am. listening to carols at the same time. im anticipating the events of month of december. oh whee.

it's finally the first:):):):D

2005-11-27T18:13:00.000+08:00

ahs. saturday was nice. i enjoyed it tonnes. it was like the yesterdays we had. almost i would say. the many yesterdays we had together. d.a.y was back. back in twos. i had the new and the old. old is gold. the old gold. valued just as much now. it's daisy and andrea. thanks to you two who've played a great role in my months in mpm. its just so super duper nice. i cant describe it in words. but its like WOW to see them again. ahhhs. those sweet sweet memories:):):):D
now another d.a.y. prayerwalk's here again. and my session is with dorothy and annabel. another two great people to work with. its gonna be fun. oh whee! :j

and yes. so yesterday, we had some pizza making competition whereby we had ten bucks to work with. so we went across the road to ang mo and returned first cos the rest went to ntuc. we prepared them in the canteen, it was sooo fun. hahs. then we had session. a nice one. and we did the bake sale. after which, we headed to mark's place for our gathering. his dad baked the pizzas we made early that afternoon. how nice. plus we had choc fondue. i feel like making it at home too. sweet tooth:) then we went up the hill. ate. talked. played. monkey! the interaction was great. and then the surprise cake for marisa. it was quite hilarious. cos we couldnt make her turn away from that direction. ahss. but we all had fun at the end of the day. thanks be to God:)

and today. is sunday. i was at school. at dr. william tan's ultramarathon. he did 100km. and that's like 250 rounds on the track. so we took turns to sprint. but he wheels even faster than us. he's got great spirit. and we had to wheel the elderly from the care centre too. only two rounds. but i think the response was quite poor. cos in the end, there werent audience. only supporters that took turns to run with him. they should have done more publicity. perhaps it would have been better.

i feel burnt now. im going kaikai with my family. how lovely...

All I want is a room somewhere;
Far away from the cold night air.
With one enormous chair;
Oh wouldn't it be loverly?
Lots of choc'late for me to eat;
Lots of coal makin' lots of heat;
Warm face, warm 'ands, warm feet,
Oh wouldn't it be loverly?
Oh, so loverly sittin' abso-bloomin'-lutely still!
I would never budge 'til Spring crep over me winder sill.
Someone's head restin' on my knee;
Warm and tender as he can be,
Who takes good care of me;
Oh wouldn't it be loverly? Loverly, loverly, loverly, loverly.

2005-11-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

the hols are here. its been weeks thought. but im finally saying this now. i guess tmr should be the last training in weeks to come. maybe just two. but yea. its good enough. hahs. feastday's gone. i mean, im done with those stuffs. ahhs.

anyhow, grandma turned seventy last saturday. seventy! i wonder if i could live to that age. heh. and i recollected the times grandma took care of me and my sis when we were young. cos sis was like her first grandchild. apparently, im the third. some boy came in the way. hahs. grandma was great! she taught me canto. though til this day i still cant speak well, i can understand it! a tiny achievement that im proud of. heh. and the times when grandma brought us out when mom and dad were at work. we went all over singapore. we picked saga seeds together. we went shopping at chinatown together. we went for her canto karaoke lessons together and blah blah blah... but there was once when grandma was assisting me to board sbs, she held this packet of wanton mee soup on the same hand as she clutched my palms. so she kinda scalded my underarms too. hahs. that i do remember. but of course, we had many many happy moments together. well, she's grandma! i shall make it a point to go out with her at least once this hols.

so here's what i plan to do in the weeks to come:):):):D
(in no special order)
- out with grandma
-to dine with as many mpmers as possible
-christmas shopping
-prayerwalk logistics
-xplc!
-sixone gatherings
-pig out with pris, kel, jas, karm, sher
-crash sp lectures again
-watch harry potter and just like heaven
-
-
-

when i think of more....

ttfn.
im off to bed:))

2005-11-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

reduced.
to bits.
to shatters.
to tears.

if i could choose five people i'll meet in heaven, i would choose you. to make sense out of my yesterdays. to allow for some understanding. to know why things turn out the way they are.

lost is the drive to want to make you happy.
deluded is the idea of love i had.
and reduced am i.

2005-11-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

a rough week gone. finally. but training has started. i feel like cutting my hair pretty short. its so troublesome. sometime soon. when i get my pay. oh yea. btw, im working at some chinese restaurant along upper east coast. heh. with grace:) a plus point. there aint much business:) 2nd plus point. flexi schedule:) 3rd plus point.

today's a nice saturday. i woke up early to send manyi off for sea games. it was kinda exciting. had salmon scramble for breakfast. fries for snacks and then popeye's. and the jam in the city was crazy. hmph. session was okay. quite funny. we went pasta at night. guys do gossip. i thought it was a girl's thing. hahs. just for entertainment sake alrights. then over to cartel. and home. oh whee. im working tmr. kinda excited:) :):):D

2005-11-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

To Sir With Love

Those schoolgirl days of telling tales and biting nails are gone
But in my mind I know they still will live on and on

But how do you thank someone
Who has taken you from crayons to perfume?
It isn't easy, but I'll try

If you wanted the skyI would write across the sky in letters
That would soar a thousand feet high
To Sir, with love

The time has come for closing books and long last looks must end
And as I leave I know that I am leaving my best friend

A friend who taught me right from wrong and weak from strong
That's a lot to learnWhat, what can I give you in return?

If you wanted the moonI would try to make a start
But I, would rather you let me give my heart
To Sir, with love

If you wanted the moonI would try to make a start
But I, would rather you let me give my heart
To Sir, with love

2005-10-25T02:35:00.000+08:00

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one that I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

2005-10-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

it wasnt the big and small things i saw.
i saw the confidence in their eyes.
the boldness that comes from within.
it was sth that i lacked.

2005-10-12T09:08:00.000+08:00

eventful five days i had!

friday was seoul with nicole, felicia, esther, chenjing, jiahui, hilda and wanting. and we managed to persuade nickie to skip her jap class. so we went shopping tgt:) met quite a few pple i almost couldnt recognize. but it felt great to meet them anyhow.

saturday. youth rally plus the talk on Da Vinci Code. frankly speaking, it didnt really appeal to me. i dont read much. maybe, at all. plus all that silly moving from pew to pew. ayes. went to srgn macs after that. and michelle's house for mahjong! i like the baby pink and purple on her walls:) i learnt a new game! stock market was it? ahas. me and daphne lost anyway. argh. but i had a great time. its been long...

sunday. out with mommy and daddy and leonard and jiejie. we went to the journey of faith exhibition. thats a second for me. then i headed to ikea and queensway. you know, my dad's the best daddy in the whole wide world! the best! MY BEST. he's so cool and wonderful. i loooooove my daddy.

monday. watched vcds. slacked around alot. almost wanted to go cycling. but i was too lazy. heh. i enjoyed monday nevertheless;) and tada! there was america's next top model! i still like kahlen though she didnt seem that good this episode:/

tuesday. hands on! i cooked lunch. with abit of help from mum. my sherperd's pie was burnt:/ so i had to peel the top layer and bake it again. hmph. so nicole, felicia, joyce and grace came over. we had train loads of fun and laughter. played mahjong again. and the silly fortune teller game. it was way too funny. ahs. met prisca, kelly, karmum and yujin at suntec crystal jade at night. missed them loads too. pity jasmine and sherlyn and jill couldnt make it. its kinda surprising how the topics we used to talk about now and in the past have changed much. maybe we're all just grown up? ayes. and karmun! i couldnt shush her in time before she said who won this season of america's next top model. hmph. ahas. luckily its just a few more days to the season finale. i cant wait. keenyah is still just a grey elephant.

wednesday. its today! im going out with sixone later. or maybe soon. i shall get changed. school starts tmr. with talks talks and talks. ayes. im gonna enjoyed today to the fullest.

tatas!

2005-09-30T05:09:00.000+08:00

aloha!!!

thanks marisa, andrea, jacq and esther:))))
just four more to go.
soon. it'll be over.

anyhow, my room light is flickering.
every single second.
its annoying me.
hopefully dad gets it replaced soon.

and apparently,
i excused myself from work last night.
i went to sleep!
such a lovely thing to do.

but im up early today.
it feels great.
the house is sooo quiet.
and im eating tom yam noodles.

sinful indulgence.

2005-09-27T20:04:00.000+08:00

wed. 28/9. 10.30am-1.30pm -General Paper
mon. 3/10 2pm-5pm -Economics
wed. 4/10 2pm-5pm - Chemistry
thurs. 6/10 8am-11am - Mathmatics
fri. 7/10 8am-11am- Physics

promos timetable.
tmr's my start.
and their end.

spent my whole day at the youth room. went over to jacq's for lunch. celebrated dotsy's belated bday too. was pleasant. pretty pleasant. a foursome we had. i should be thankful. cos there we were:)

mesmerized were you.

2005-09-24T08:57:00.000+08:00

my boss is a jewish carpenter.

2005-09-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

i want to walk among the gathering, swirling leaves.

to find the deep and abiding love.

to discover a new understanding of the vast personality, boundless love, and abundant grace.

but i fear ~~disappointment~~

still, i want it all back.

my ohana.

2005-09-14T02:58:00.000+08:00

I'm ... I'm ...

All my bags are packed,

I'm ready to go

I'm standin' here outside your door

I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn

The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn

Already I'm so lonesome

I could die

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll wait for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane

I don't know when I'll be back again

Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...

There's so many times

I've let you down

So many times I've played around

I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you

Every song I sing, I sing for you

When I come back

I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll wait for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane

I don't know when I'll be back again

Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you

One more time, oh, let me kiss you

And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come

When I won't have to leave alone

About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll wait for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane

I don't know when I'll be back again

Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane

I don't know when I'll be back again

Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)

Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)

Leaving On a jet plane

2005-09-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

oh whee.
i had a smashing time at malaysia.
the geog field trip was so fun. so nice. so beautiful.

plus the next seven days at kl was great.
like all shopaholics will feel.
sun+ grams place for lunch. grandma's leaving for LA again. another few months not having her around. ayes. then we drove up to kl. reached around eight. had mungo jerry's bkt for dinner.
mon+sungei wang. kinda bored. returned to hotel early. then night market.
tues+ mid valley mega mall. it's seriously the best place to shop.
wed+genting. oh whee! it was lovely. sat coaster rides my lil bro. hmm. he was dead scared. but he pretended! arghh.. i miss those times when our whole big fam would travel tgt. cos it used to be the maids carying our stuff for us when we were playing. but this time, it was mom and dad who stood by the side. boohoos.
thurs+sleep in. mugged a little. watched parent trap! oh whee:):D
fri+dunkin' donuts dunkin' donutsdunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts dunkin' donuts home:)

2005-08-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

gosh. seems like ages since i came online. anyhow, im home early today! 3pm. i broke the record. oh well.

just some updates...
last week was fabulous. i had loads of fun. went to watch the fireworks many times. countdown. national day. and closing ceremony too. so exciting. this week's hectic for me. loads to catch up. lots to laugh and cry about. tonnes of things to miss. aye aye.

busy week.
will be back when ive got more time on my hands.

prisandkel>> heys. thanks thanks. miss you so so much. yepps. we're gonna be as busy as bees too. might not be able to meet up soon. i'll be away during sept hols. aye aye. lucks for all your project and tests. i love you two:) plus jasmine. maybe, if she replies my msges faster. heh.

karm>> gosh. i miss prom night. the times we spent tgt. i loooooove them like crazy. its so so so so nice to meet you along corridors. cos i know this is mutton. who knows all the stuff about pork and beef. plus birdie too. hahs. and all the gossips we once shared. and yes. you've been missing on our recent dates. must join us the next time alrights. october. your favourite month i guess.

jacq>> heys! i caught the fireworks on sunday! it was beautiful. tgt with the music. guess you would have gone bonkers if you were there. maybe you were?

charles>> hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. hippo. ahas. thanks for entertaining me during my late nights:))

oops. i just rmb. the geog-ers are going on a field trip to malaysia. i want to join them. it'll be fun. but it clashes with my shopping spree. or maybe. its a study camp. gonna coop myself in the hotel room and mug. sounds terrible. i want to go to that that that place again. its so cool.

so means i'll be out of town from 1st to 10th?

~~shopaholic.~~

2005-08-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

A long, long time ago I can still remember how that music used to make me smile and I knew if I had my chance that I could make those people dance and maybe they'd be happy for a while but February made me shiver with every paper I delivered, bad news on the door step, I couldn't take one more step, I can't remember if I cried when I read about his widowed bride but something touched me deep inside, the day, the music, died. So...